challenge....challenging.....will I make it.....

I am not often one to run from a challenge….normally….soooooo I am finding myself up against a challenging challenge which I have not really been faced with for some time…..well let me rephrase…..I mean my weight loss has been a challenge, however, this challenge is about my art…and how I work specifically ……I started an online course with a former professor from Longwood……it is about visual journalling…..I am NOT a visual journaling person so it is a challenge….I honestly sat looking at a blank journal page for almost 20 minutes with nothing happening…..NOTHING….well except for the growing anxiety welling up inside me and the stress of putting that first mark down onto the paper…..I was a wreck…..I was worried if I “messed up”….how am I going to fill an entire 100 page journal full of images etc about ONE thing…..and then the hubs said……”it doesn’t have to be perfect and you just have to make one mark to start…and let things evolve though out the journal……the fact that it is multiple pages should allow you to let it grow into a many different things”……soooo I started marking on the page….and things have slowly started to evolve and I have some thoughts in my head as to where I may take it and what I will begin with and let it evolve…. :) so we will see but this has been very interesting and more challenging to look at something like this….after all this time out being an artist on my own….to be back in a class…not getting a grade…but having someone who is really good at a certain things …looking at your work…etc…….. I just don’t know and now I feel like I am babbling along…. @