so enough with the challenge this challenge that crap!

well as you can see from the title of this entry…..I have decided to stop bitching and moaning about the challenges I have been facing etc…..or challenges I have placed in my path…..NOT that they are going anywhere because they certainly are not….but why complain about them? does nothing but take up space and bore people to death! LOL……do want to talk about this though…..as you all know the challenge of the art journal practically put me in the looney bin…….and I overcame that fear/challenge and have now embraced the concept and am enjoying it….am I doing as much as I was in my journals…..no….and this is where I begin my story here…… so yesterday as we were driving back from VA…René and I were chatting and I mentioned working down in the studio etc…..I haven’t been down there much as I didn’t want to aggravate my back without having a Chiro to fix it if need be…… it has become quite a touchy subject and I can certainly see how someone who may has pain and gets pain meds prescribed to them, that if it took away the pain….getting hooked would be easy…pain is not fun at all!…anyway….. as I was talking about working on the studio mural which had a great start and came to a screeching halt with the return to work and the journaling class…..I also mentioned working or I should say expanding on the theme of the water/leaves etc concept that came to be in the first journal…….and he said you just have to get down there and work as that is when you become creative…… work comes from work…and that I was doing what I did before……instead of working on something I am simply sitting here TALKING about working on something and making it feel as if “I am being creative”….and it reminded me of the trap that I was in BEFORE the mural/journal class…… the work work work…think. about art and let months pass doing nothing but TALKING about making art and working through concepts in my mind and putting things off as if I was afraid to begin and possibly discover what was happening!………and it made me realize that I had always used my art as a time to work though things mentally….and to also escape a little to a world I could control ….etc etc……..well I think with everything happening in the world…and personally with the weight loss etc….my mind had become overloaded….and I turned away from one of the things that could help me get through some of the shit and process some of the mental stuff I have had stashed away up in. the pink goo…….. soooooo….today is going to be a day of working in the studio doing something……hopefully working on the studio wall/mural as I would love for that to get finished up and be ready for its grand debut on screen……. all of this also reminded me of a video I watched some time back and I think I will be putting that into practice today…… I will link it below along with a couple of pieces from a new journal I began which will be completely black and white sketches/work……anyway…….love yourself……be kind to yourself….and be kind to others! @